No matter how you try to run away from the things that make you sad, nor how much you hide that sadness, you'd end up not successful. Feeling of depression will always be an unpleasant guest - oftentimes frequent, at other times passing by quickly as if to just say hi. But depression is like a loyal friend. It doesn't forget. That's why ot stays with you though at times it gives you space.
And right now, depression is an annoying friend that won't be shooed. And it brings with it an idea of ending a life. My life. Because...
What's there to live?